It Takes Two to Tango...

Went to bed with a drop of tear falling from the corners of my eyes.

I don't bother to wipe it off from my cheek.

That drop of tear is more than sadness, it was a blend of frustration, anger, disappointment and helplessness.

'Just close your eyes and sleep,' I thought to myself.

I'm not the type of person who forgets her troubles after a good night's sleep. 

They stay as long as I breathe, they just do.

Sometimes when my troubles push me to the verge of the cliff for negative emotions, I have the urge for dance or anything dance related.

For example, Por Una Cabeza, the song Al Pacino dances to in the movie 'Scent of Woman'.

The song somehow channels my emotions and soothes me. I could listen to it for hours.

Today is one of the days when I have the song played on loop. 

'You don't grow tried of this song, do you?' My mother asked.

'No, mother, I don't. Good stuffs transcend time,' I said, at the same time anticipating my favourite part of the song.

As the song eventually came to the end, before I click Play again, my mum asked a good question, 

'do you want to take dance lessons again?'

'Yes, I do,' I don't even have to think before giving an answer.

'Why not?' another question.

'You know the reasons well enough. I don't have to repeat them...' I said.

I listen to Por Una Cabeza to soothe myself, but that question brings back the frustration.

It is even stronger now.

I find myself waiting. 

Waiting for months and years, and very soon a decade.

Waiting for things to happen.

Yet, they usually don't.

'It takes two to tango,' I added. Then let out a sigh.

I was perhaps saying something more than only dance.

People think tango is all about sex. 

But it really is so much more----connection, trust, precision, control, discipline, just to name a few.

Like any other partner dance, it is an unspoken yet shared language between the two.

Does dance strengthen the relationship? Or does it take a strong relationship to have a good dance?

I'm in such desperation that I couldn't even think clearly now.

Just as my inability to answer the question I just asked myself, I'm equally unsure if I want to wait for what I have been waiting for years.

I guess it's time for me to stop waiting...

Dear readers,

What are you waiting for?

Is there anything that you really want to do and yet have been waiting for the 'right time'?

Maybe it's time to put it in action.

Love,

N