2013 Mother's Day

Mother's day. Not a very special occasion for my family.

We don't really make a fuss about it.

Like any other day, we usually fill Mother's Day (or Father's day) with hugs, laughter, food and lots of love--exactly what I love about my family.

 

This is perhaps only the second time that I'm not spending Mother's Day with my mom.

The other time when my mother was not with me on Mother's Day was in 1997.

She was in Canada, waiting to give birth to my brother, who was born in late May.

Today, I have lunch with my grandparents and relatives.

Why do I have to attend the 'celebration'?-- Maybe I'm just mentally tired, but I couldn't really process this and figure out why.

I called my parents this morning, had a long chat with them. 

So, what's the point of celebrating Mother's Day when my mum isn't even here?

Despite the awkwardness I feel, I was still there at the lunch.

Oops! Let's rewind a bit. 

Before the lunch, I broke down and cried like a baby, simply because I miss my mom too much and I didn't know what to do except crying it all out.

I was crying so hard that when my grandma saw me crying, she ended up crying herself too.

So basically the both of us ended up hugging and crying -- definitely not the best way to celebrate the day.

The only thing I want to do is to give my mom a big warm hug, like how we used to hug every single day.

And I'd love to share with her painting of Pino Daeni because some of his works remind me so much of my mum and the special moments we share.

Mom, thank you for being the most loving person in the world.
I grow up aspiring to be a loving woman just like you.
Miss you & love you. :')

Love,
N